Over 100 years ago spirituality was based on principals that were kept hidden. These principals meant that the seeker had to prove their sincerity through sacrifice. Sacrifice was well understood to those who were separated by the current mythologies keeping them from their inherit source. Secret societies, hidden agenda’s have no function in the octave of love. Counting DNA strands while traversing dimensions have no function until the physical body is in complete mastery with the emotional and mental bodies.

The hidden is as obvious as the result of loving kindness and understanding. What I noticed is I met myself in you. In your determination to know, we met listening to the message longing to be connected to the source of the message and hoping to get close to the messenger. Strangely enough the messenger was never available. I have paid the price for techniques in energy work, mantras, transpersonal psychology sessions and weekend warriorship courses yet what I needed was to realize my self worth and that cannot be bought. Love is a mystery. Love requires attention.

The only mystery in the mystery schools is can you do the work?
There are those who through intense desire to know their true hidden self and the still small voice within, have done so because of illness, trauma, loss of a loved one and karma. Each one of us, at our soul’s timing determines our personal truth. Can the desire to know myself while seeking the kingdom within function without stress as the motivator? I propose yes!

It is a matter of attention. If I am to wake up from a belief of limitation I must pay attention to my feelings. Am I experiencing self-love? Is this feeling of self-love dependant outside of me? Be the expert. Expect results from the asking. After all there is no one to get in
the way, if you are doing the questioning and the answering. The best advice is self-advice! While the world debates of conspiracy theories, perpetuates conflict and war, how can I exist in freedom when annihilation ensues? In order to save the world I had to save myself.

I decided if I can learn how to relax, I will have to declare that the world is a safe place to be in! The world is now inside of me. Now is time fulfilled, time to stop the fear in my thinking and feeling. The question becomes, "what will you do for the sake of love?"

Start the day with a personal message to self, one of encouragement! Look in the mirror and say "I love you." Self-neglect is only a habit. 2004 is said to represent love. Replace neglect with conscious healthy self talk several times a day until you really get how important you are to yourself. Find a way to build self-trust through self appreciation. To love one self is the greatest test of courage, honor and self-obedience a person who seeks peace and well-being can do. When knowing who you are makes a difference in your own life you’re on the path and self love is the cushion that you fall onto through any experience you choose.

May I say we are all imbued with God given talents. Seek them out and develop them first. Yes you have the time. Succeed within the realm of your talents and you will discover the truth of your destiny.
Are you holding your breath? Most of us do just because we negate ourselves so thoroughly that even the first step towards self-realization becomes so painful that we become waking sleep walkers.

I know that everyone who is alive today has a talent. I propose there is a talent in loving. Is your self-talk loving? Are your conversations about the short-comings of others? At what degree of loving do you measure your self worth? When the measure no longer is of concern, selflessness, and unconditional love will build a paradise for living. Paying attention to the voice of creativity is full time loving myself. Yes we are here to enjoy and share the wealth on Earth. Wake up the child sleeping inside you and have a talk. Do you want to play?

The mystery schools are closed for renovation. No longer is the message separated from the messenger. The messenger and the message are of one vibration. Now the teachers are at sabbatical, meditating, writing, jogging and serving unconditionally without recognition, without fees. We’ve run out of funding because you are investing in yourself instead. You’ll get out of debt if you pay yourself first.
Your talent is self-esteem budding up and transforming into the lotus blossom of a sweet smelling soul.

Just like those who’ve paved the way for me in loving themselves, they found a way to stop the criticizing of others and eliminated the distraction of sacrificing for others; you’ll have more than enough energy to follow your bliss. Trust the experience, inquire within, be patient. There is a season of love in bloom today.

Carol Petersen-Perez
January 15, 2004

www.stargrail.net

Carol Petersen-Perez is an indigenous woman. Her insight comes from direct experience. She believes that to know yourself you must have an understanding of your family tree. Who are your ancestors? What mythologies do you relate to? She sat at the tree. She climbed it and swung from the branches and ate of the forbidden fruit. In the darkest of times, she only had the tree to lean on. The tree of life is also your spine. In your spine is the genetic code. She has a sense that humankind has celestial origins. She is a student of consciousness and believes that genetics exhibit the key to consciousness and divinity.

Carol is a story teller, visionary and a humorist. Carol is teaching everyone to exercise the funny bone. She says the funny bone is connected to all the bones in the body.
"Laughter is a mechanism that strengthens the heart and increases the nervous system's capacity to receive and sustain emotional love. While most of us feel more comfortable giving than receiving. The quickest way to shed amour is to laugh." Laughter is the key to open the gate of defenses.

Today she adheres to knowing that, "When you wish upon a star it doesn't matter who you are." All humans have an origin in divine consciousness. To learn more email Carol at: tlamco@hotmail.com